I"M WORKING ON IT

so recently i've come into some $50 in store credit, and i'm thinking of making a contest to use it as a prize, but i can't think of anything fun, amusing, or to my IMMEDIATE BENEFIT.

i'm open to ideas.

::EDIT::

i'm no longer open to ideas.

::EDIT EDIT::

STOP ASKING. never fear, i wont turn back on my word and spend the money on myself, but i'm waiting to see if i can increase my winnings to offer a better prize for my personal contest. i'm so lazy though, in the end i might just donate it back to the staff and see what they can do with it for you guyz.

well that time of year has come and gone again. all i have to show for the newgrounds meet are 8 blisters, 4 bruises, a 5 inch slash on my arm, food poisoning, and i'm so sad its all over. seriously, i count my blessings quite tall to not only have soaked in the presence of the NG elite, but to even be recognized, and EVEN come out with a few new gewd friends. truly is the best of times. i'm not going to recall funny stories or such shit, luis will take care of that 3 weeks from now when all the photos get sifted through. i dont even care how shitty i look. it was great to meet all you peeps, anyone i gladhanded who's reading this, it was great.

how i miss it so.

i'll post a picture when i damn well want to.

of the forty-one comments i have on my art pieces, all but three are in "users cannot agree whether this is helpful or not" status.

that is all.

here is a picture of a cheese i did for some raisin in a forum not too long ago.

*EDIT* ok not a cheese since that was in cmyk format

**EDIT** couldn't upload the picture of the festive sperm whale due to file constraints

***EDIT***ok for another unknown reason the creepy picture of a stucco formation on my wall had a corrupt file extension

****EDITE**** can't find the picture of my cat

*****GEEF UIT***** FUCH IIT, I EDITED THE DAMN CHEESE AND NOW HE'S ANGRY

my affair with being a pretentious artfag that-is-unable-to-put-a-price-on-print s has quickly waned.

does anyone here make commissions? what of, and how did you figure out pricing? i'm wondering if i might be able to do them. perhaps not now, a month from my busiest event of the year, but i'm unemployed and i don't make a dime off the art i do.

so, i'd appreciate some serious advice on that. THANKS.

current gallery in case you don't know who the hell i am. HECK

cuz if nobody helps me now, i'm going to have to move in with a preening fag in Te-jas for monetary sustenance.

plz help

feelin' tired of the previous post, but i don't have anything new to show.

regardless, i impart a gift

and a random fact about myself. i sleep best when i tie my hands behind my back. TRY IT

glorious fullview

i'm so sick right now.

leave me a message. yes, i'm still here, but do it anyway.

i love being a part of this site

weekly (not at all weekly) question: who, in your humble opinion, is the most attractive cast member of the Kids in the Hall - in drag.

in closing: everyone needs to know how to self-medicate

shirobon and penguin bars, sheer delight.

~joel

i'm rounding one of the lower points of my already low moods.

with campnorth off the map for awhile, it means not only the loss of the better art site, but a link in my already weak social chain. detract from that, the loss in contact with a friend in real life , and frustrations at home with dying/not dying/dying again relatives.

yea, its excuses. but with so few places to vent, it's gotta end up somewhere.

what's been bothering me recently is the overwhelming self-absorption in my art. not that i'm getting lost in it, but that it seems to focus around me. i'm not interested in drawings that don't seem to have some psychological or visual link to myself and that bothers me. art seems to be the thermometer of my well-being, and the mark is rising ever more into the 'hermit' area. is this bad? it is. i'm not really caring about my mental state, i'm concerned though that it's having a profoundly negative impact on my art. i'm not running out of ideas, i'm just not paying attention to them anymore. thats awful.

real awful.

i don't want to be self-absorbed, even if just for the reason that i don't want other people to think i'm a narcissist. i'm scarcely an egoist. its just that when you're around yourself and yourself alone for 24 hours a day.....

anyway. as far as my project status goes, i'm weaning myself off of newgrounds collabs for awhile. i still need to complete my share of the storybook project, which i'm grossly procrastinating on.

i don't want to focus on the drawing side for awhile, i need to make something in flash, one good solo project to my name. i'm thinking of doing a demo reel, and i've gotten alot of good segments ready. when i've actually animated a few, i'll post a screencap. does anyone know if/how i can combine fla's together? i want to use frames from another project i never finished but i don't know how to add it in an existing file.

well. here's to hoping i can actually motivate my damn self in the future.

be seeing you
-joel