i love being a part of this site

weekly (not at all weekly) question: who, in your humble opinion, is the most attractive cast member of the Kids in the Hall - in drag.

in closing: everyone needs to know how to self-medicate

shirobon and penguin bars, sheer delight.

~joel

i'm rounding one of the lower points of my already low moods.

with campnorth off the map for awhile, it means not only the loss of the better art site, but a link in my already weak social chain. detract from that, the loss in contact with a friend in real life , and frustrations at home with dying/not dying/dying again relatives.

yea, its excuses. but with so few places to vent, it's gotta end up somewhere.

what's been bothering me recently is the overwhelming self-absorption in my art. not that i'm getting lost in it, but that it seems to focus around me. i'm not interested in drawings that don't seem to have some psychological or visual link to myself and that bothers me. art seems to be the thermometer of my well-being, and the mark is rising ever more into the 'hermit' area. is this bad? it is. i'm not really caring about my mental state, i'm concerned though that it's having a profoundly negative impact on my art. i'm not running out of ideas, i'm just not paying attention to them anymore. thats awful.

real awful.

i don't want to be self-absorbed, even if just for the reason that i don't want other people to think i'm a narcissist. i'm scarcely an egoist. its just that when you're around yourself and yourself alone for 24 hours a day.....

anyway. as far as my project status goes, i'm weaning myself off of newgrounds collabs for awhile. i still need to complete my share of the storybook project, which i'm grossly procrastinating on.

i don't want to focus on the drawing side for awhile, i need to make something in flash, one good solo project to my name. i'm thinking of doing a demo reel, and i've gotten alot of good segments ready. when i've actually animated a few, i'll post a screencap. does anyone know if/how i can combine fla's together? i want to use frames from another project i never finished but i don't know how to add it in an existing file.

well. here's to hoping i can actually motivate my damn self in the future.

be seeing you
-joel

still feeling bad from my last post...

most of my deadlines have passed about now, except for the metropolis disaster, ultimate pet, and storybook collaboration

storybook collaboration being my top priority.

beyond that, in the near future i hope to add more paintings to my campnorth account. afterwards during feb/march i'm going to be hightailing it on my comiccon costume. latex doesn't cast itself you know!

in other news, i'm incredibly depressed that i'm missing the london meet happenin' in a few days. my father is actually in england right now, it just buuuurrnns me. oh well. i'll have my fun at comiccon as per usual.

oh - and my new years resolution is pictured below.

PLZ TOM??!?

be seeing you

yea i don't know what that means either.

i've decided to keep a post up for all the projects i'm dipping my hands in. those cold...clammy hands...
this is probably more for my sake than anything, i've got alot of things going down in the newgrounds/campnorth communities, i'd die if i forgot something, to hell with the real world and its real deadlines and its actual money profits!! and until macs start coming out with word processors with unlimited trial time, it's all going to be posted here.

storybook collaboration

this is the biggest thing on my plate so far, i'm working with RNNR to illustrate his story, its getting to be way more epic than any of the crew had expected though! he updates on his userpage here

RNNR's updates

nobody can't not say he isn't anything but thorough.

metropolis disaster

i thought this was some collab to tribute a flash i hadn't seen, but its just a general "draw things destroying things!"....thing... so heck, i can do that!

rpg monsters for cash

this just looks like plain old fun. i'm sure i'll take it too far and it'll consume a whole weekend or something. a good way to test out some new tools.

Neight's Campnorth member collaboration

all the slots are filled and i can't forget to do this, for my peace of mind i'm just going to say the deadline is jan 1st (with the board drama its hard to tell) i'm waiting to see how more of the pictures turn out. HA, now who's the kid with mustard in his hair and a wee spot on his corduroy slacks in the third row, MRS. BAGGLEDORFER!!!

Takin' it to the streets - Boogley style

last, but not least. i owe it to boogley for any measure of success i'm enjoying, and i'll be partaking in any collaboration he does.
if
*sniffs*
he'll have me @_@

as far as solo projects go, i've started alot and close to finishing little. there's a four and a half minute music video that i'm doing for a friend. its personal though so i don't think that'll get on newgrounds or cntv. the only reason i bring it up is that i'm trying to finish that first and its only halfway done.
i don't have another "project" lined up after that, what i do have are alot of little flash samples i've done while tinkering with the program. i'll probably figure out a way to string them together and showcase that. that's probably where the picture of my turtle in the last post will go too. for the time being.

dot dot dot.... anything else? any birthdays out there? anniversaries? weddings? divorces?....funerals?

seriously people, there are only so many hours of the day i'm not sleeping or crying myself to sleep next to a comode, preferably in a chinese restaurant. let me know of fun ng stuff and keep me on my toes! and out of the Fu-King* restaurant.

be seeing you

-joel

*according to father's prank calls, restaurant actually exists

http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/10 04276

oh. your. god.

oh MY god for that matter.

i tell you, when i saw the post i was on the threshold of blacking out, i'm not kidding. i was this close to being found by CSI starkers in my bedroom with nothing but newgrounds on my laptop and the snes remix of numa numa on repeat.

this post isn't for my fans, its for the people that are going to be pissed when they see the post and think
"who is this lucky &$*@ that gets a free tablet with only one submission and a COLLABORATION no less."

i didn't think i had a chance of winning when i saw the recent trend. kids that started at 13 with already a dozen submissions under their belt. my angle has always been art though (if my banner and icon wasn't a clue), only just recently have i been able to enter the world of flash. I've always wanted to, but never had the bucks for the program, and was far too sheepish to download...discreetly.. i'm fantastically excited, and i'll get right into the clutter of flashes i've only partially finished because my tablet died.

oh, and cuz i love you all so much, i'm inserting (if i can figure it out) the screencap that i included with the original pm to tom of the one of my projects i'm doing, it be of my precious turtle Carretta. whom doesn't give a lick about my jubilation right now and wants her shrimp-flavored ashy treats in the shape of fish.
why fish?
she's only five inches long, she's not catching any fish.....

and if you really want to see something in flash that i've done - ANYTHING - there's a lil birthday flash i made for Fawx. it's an incredibly esoteric intellectual piece that was well thought out over the span of....

ok i made it in less than five hours before my tablet kacked.....

:edit:
and you know what, i'm not posting it here anymore - its under my scrap page on campnorth, which is the link directly to your left under my INCREDIBLE CONAN QUOTE. wiser words have ne'er been spake before or since.